Since Coach and I are also training partners, I sometimes joke and call myself his trainer. I offer feedback when asked but rarely comment otherwise. When form check is needed, I record him and we analyze together. It’s a better way for me to learn as well, not only about what to watch for but how he handles critique. I have come a long way but sometimes I still let frustration win.
Today I had 10×1 bench at 185#. I need to be consistent here but today was not the day, set 8 was the best, set 9 was the most terrifying failure I’ve had in my 4+ years of lifting. It was so dangerous that Coach, who usually lets me bring it down to my chest, jumped in and ripped the bar out of my hands. “Shit! How does your shoulder feel?” I jumped off the bench and said, a little too loudly and high pitched “that was terrifying” to which he said “that was dangerous. you almost tore out your shoulder. How’s your shoulder feeling?” “I dont know! I’m drowning in adrenaline, I feel on warp speed and slow motion at the same time.” He ended my day.
With a clearer mind I can tell you that I lifted off decently but as soon as the bar began its descent, I lost all the lat engagement on my left side pushing all the bar weight into my left shoulder. I couldn’t stop the momentum. Bench is my solid lift and all I can say is that the lack of sleep is making this journey dangerous. We have a “no excuses” agreememt so I tell Coach another truth “I momentarily lost my focus”. He knows that (lack of) sleep is behind this but I still need to take responsibility for the consequences.
I have bags of frozen peas strategically placed around my shoulders. Unfortunately, this happened to my healthy shoulder and my crappy one is hurting just because it does. I can’t afford the massages nor the mobility work anymore so I do what I can and will just have to learn to work with it.
The big fun of the day came from Coach. He had heavy wide stance squats. I recorded the 405# rep so he could check his form (I wish I could post it but I didn’t ask permission and I’m sure he’d say no). Prior to his 425# he said something I never imagined he would say about anything, ever: “I’m scared of failing on these. When you fail at a normal stance, its no big deal. There’s no good way to fail on wide stance.” I’ve watched a lot of video recently of wide stance squats and I know he’s right. I’m scared for him (and his poor hips). In the end he didn’t fail but he stayed too upright. 450# wasn’t nearly as good as 425# so he ended it there.
Coach said he was scared. This was good for me. 1) I occasionally need reminding that he is human, 2) when I am afraid, I tend to think of it as a character flaw. When Coach said it I thought he was smart and sensible. I need to cut myself some slack as some fear is sensible, 3) as someone who is still a little nervous about back squatting after my injury, I watched someone work successfully with their fear.
I just chalk this up to a strange day. I will head back soon for workout number 2. I don’t know if its still the shock of that bench press, but I’m not looking forward to lifting on my own tonight. Usually I like the solitude of the second workout but tonight I’d like to have someone around.